MYTHZ: August 2008

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

crozzmeheart

Angel Of Death

damn failures I made
all I do now is bleed
I crash my mind like insane
stabbing myself with pain

slicing my skin
poured out to bleed
creeping my sense
out of my mind

living with tears
following a dream
now i ran after the
angel of death

living alone along with torns
along the way that i cross
all i could see now is
the blood flowing from my wrist

won't you help me! help me!
I'm loosing grip on this
my hope is gone, all had gone
would there still be chance
for me to make things right???

crozzmeheart

Out Of My Life

you said you're away
but i saw you there
you lied to me

you could be wrong
I could be right
but I don't care
I doubt you now

I wanna shout deep in the dark
cry out loud beneath the rain
I wanted your heart
but who's to be blame now
i want you out of my life

It's crazy I could bear all this time
you lied...

ME and my inspiration, JUST FOR ME!!! plis dont read..^^

I just wanted to know myself, always wanted to find my reason or reasons why I'm here, It's been a long time, and until now,still the pain goes deeper and deeper, I wonder what are those reasons that some people loves for a reason,for reasons... Yet in the end as the reasons have come to fade,everything goes along with it.

It might not matter at all, whether it seems they love you, because only when you don't feel anything deep,because only you like the person, and you are to love the person for no reason,and you truly love the person... For there will be no reason for love to fade, for there were no reasons you LOVED..

LOVE is EVERYWHERE they say,
Admitted! everyone of us have a goal or goals in life,
for a reason we have inspirations,
I have my inspiration,
for whom I worked hard for,
and for no reasons at all I just do..
why? I don't know, ask the trees , they might know.hehehe. ^^,

What do i really want?
Sometimes i really don't know, every time I get hurt,
I just forget it,but Hell! what am I thinking???,
any way,tsktsktsk! I'm just so stubborn,
why should I think about it? what's the big deal anyway,
our minds are just so mysterious, always being imaginative,
predictive, unfortunately of negative ones,
specially when mourning,"can you give me a dose of valium please?" heheh...

Yeah you'd might be crazy for some times,
alternative ways are everywhere,
I love music as well , and as a result,
emotional lyrics comes out.. heheh..
I would also like to create a song with a content of happiness,
For her I wanted to do anything,everything, an eternal wait would be enough I think..ehehe

Why bother trying to love other than the one I truly love,
when in fact even there would be no reason ,I still can't say
"I love you" to that someone.

I aspired for so many things, I've tried serving three masters at the same time, i wanted to have them, I never thought
at the same time they'd all be gone,
I wanted them all to be mine again,
and I would do everything to have them back...

I would start over, but to the only thing I would have is my pride, it' would be the only way I think I can have her back,
I wanted to straighten my life ,which once delineated buy ego,
I ask help form God to keep me intact of my self-in-pieces to be whole again as I go through everything...
to take every single thing without fear or doubts, to be brave enough to face reality, reality which reveals the truth, and accept it no matter how hard, accept it no matter how painful it would be....

I love,there for i must sacrifice, for that someone and for myself...I don't want to loose the race... I'll walk on ti'll the last step that I can make ,,even that step would means the last step that I could make...